Fate Smiled

Oooh, I believe, fate smiled
And destiny laughed as you came to my cradle
Know this child will be able
Laughed as my body she lifted
Know this child will be gifted
With love, with patience, and with faith
She'll make her way...

I will never forget the day Natalie Merchant's song "Wonder" played in my kitchen. It had only been a week or so since Ellie was born when I really heard this song for the first time, with new ears. I almost fell to my knees listening to the lyrics and I truly believed that I was meant to hear that song, at that very moment. 

Today as I was brushing Ellie's hair into two little pig tails I couldn't help but think back to a little over 6 years ago. I was pregnant with Luke and it was when Jesse and I both had the dreams. The dreams about the little girl who was ours, with almond eyes and an extra chromosome. I will never forget those two pig tails and sweet smile. I can't believe that because of these dreams we made the decision to be done having children- as if to not "risk it". I had no idea of the little soul that was waiting up there for us. Waiting for that right moment to come down and be ours, to rock our world.

I am a true believer in serendipity, fate, and destiny. How could I not be? It was not a coincidence that Jesse and I both had dreams about Ellie. I look at the past two years, and the journey our life has taken. I think about the people I am meeting along the way, it doesn't feel like just any other ordinary connection. I look at my existing relationships and how they are deepening to a whole new level. There's something more to it, something extraordinary that is hard to put into words.

Today as I looked at my daughter; a sassy, opinionated, smart, beautiful 2 year old little girl, I realize she is exactly who she is meant to be. She completes our party of five and I wouldn't have it any other way. I wouldn't change her for the entire world. And I'm confident that she'll make her way.

That face!

Snuggles from her big brother Luke

But I want it now!

I had to include some drama queen photos!

Brotherly lovin'

My girl

Wonder - Natalie Merchant

3/21/15 World Down Syndrome Day

Guess what day it is!!?

It's 3-21, otherwise known as World Down Syndrome Day!

I have so much to talk about that I don't even know where to start!! Can you hear the excitement in voice?? I mean in my typing!?!?

First off, the Down Syndrome Diagnosis Network has been fortunate to team up with the amazing and talented blogger Meriah Nichols in A Day in the Life of Down Syndrome. We submitted our day here: A Day in the Life of Our 2 Year Old Bookworm. I posted a video of Ellie reading at 26 months old at the end of the post. She is just amazing us! We also posted photos to Instagram and Facebook with the hashtag #lifewithDs. I'm still new to this hashtagging business but I think I figured it out. Here are a couple of my faves:

My big bro Joey helped design a shirt that we sold to raise funds for DSDN and we ended up selling more than our goal. Check out the awesome design (and the cute kids wearing them!) I'm kicking myself now, I wish I would have bought Jess and I shirts too! My father-in-law has one he will be sporting, the kid's daycare lady Lynn bought one (we love you Wynn!!!) and my friend Megan from high school even bought one. Heart. Is. Full!!!!

The Mighty made a shout out to their contributors to submit a short video answering the question "what is one thing you wish people knew about down syndrome?" and my boys answered. Check out the beautiful video below:

The Mighty - WDSD Video

Yesterday the boys wore their sweet new shirts to school (yes they are wearing them 2 days in a row, and no I didn't have time to wash them) :) Mrs. Miller, Luke's Kindergarten teacher even played the Mighty video for the whole class, twice! Luke was so excited to share it with his friends, his smile was a mile wide when he got off the bus yesterday!

The Mighty also wrote a story about how those with Ds experience a range of emotion... this isn't a surprising concept, right? Check it out and see Ellie and Lloyd (our kitty) in the article. I cannot tell you the number of times I've heard that people with Down syndrome are always happy. As a matter of fact, one day Ellie and I were in our favorite store (Target) and a gal probably in her 80's walked by and said "oh, look at her, she's so happy!" and Ellie's facial expression at that moment was like this: LOL!

Oh, and get this!! Ellie is going to help Change the Face of Beauty! I'm sure you've heard about this wonderful campaign started by Katie Driscoll. Back in December the special needs community was encouraged to call out companies to use people of all abilities in their advertising. Well I had sent Ellie's photo to a local modeling agency and found out last night that they want to use her! The night before WDSD. How neat is that!?!? They are called Puddletown Talent and are located in Portland. I'm so excited and they are too. I will keep you posted on that in the coming months! I'll never forget when Ellie's friend Izzy's picture was in the Target ad and my boys said "mom!!! she's just like sissy", they LOVED seeing her in the ad. I can't wait for the day that seeing people of all abilities in advertising isn't a big deal anymore. 

So the plan for this special day is to mow the lawn and follow that up with an afternoon nap then Red Robin for bottomless fries, and maybe big beers. :)

We also celebrated "Spread the Word to End the Word" on 3/4. I shared the below photo of Ellie and it was shared 418 times, I was blown away. The support from friends and family as well as strangers is humbling. I am so grateful. Thank you my friends for sharing this important message!!

A few more photos of this cute little face:

So for this post I asked Will to pick the song. He loves this song and it's one of our top picks for our dance parties in our kitchen. :) And note we chose the Spongebob version because the actual music video is weird and inappropriate!

P.S I dare you to play the song and see if you can keep yourself from busting a move, I bet you can't! Just try it!

Turn Down For What - DJ Snake Feat Lil Jon

The Smartest 2 Year Old Ever

It was the evening before Ellie's 2nd birthday and I was doing that "thing". The whole self-pity thing that I tell other mom's not to do. Our kids are awesome, they are on their own timeline! We can't worry about milestones! You see, Miss Ellie isn't walking yet. Just taking her to the grocery store I am asked "how old is she? is she walking yet?" Almost every single time. So I was dwelling... There's something about a big milestone like a birthday that brings all of those emotions to the forefront for me. It makes me crazy that I do the very thing I encourage others not to do.

On this day I was just wallowing in it. These emotions always sneak up on me it seems. But then our neighbor girl came over. She is 11, and she had her friend with her. She was excited to show her friend all of Ellie's cool tricks. "Watch, she can whistle!" her friend was shocked. Then she asked if she could get Ellie's favorite book, and I said "of course!" Ellie then read 6 words out of her book, she can sight read the words "eyes" and "toes" and she makes correct animal sounds when she sees the word "cat", "elephant" and "tiger", and she waves for the word "wave". Our neighbor's friend said "how does she do that!? She is the smartest 2 year old ever!!" I felt my heart swell, then I felt guilty. Ellie is not reaching milestones on time, she is even behind some of her peers with Down syndrome. But you know what? She is rocking it in her own way. We are so so proud of our girl. She continues to amaze us daily.

Ellie had her 2 year doc appt, and the same week had her 2 year check-up with the Down Syndrome Clinic at OHSU and all of the awesome staff there. We are so lucky to have such a great medical team that cares about Ellie! I highly recommend the Ds Clinic, it's a long appointment but SO worth it. She met with an audiologist, speech therapist, occupational therapist, physical therapist, and Dr. Pinter. After the appointment they send a packet of information with all of their notes and suggestions. It's so nice to have it as a baseline for Ellie and I plan on taking her there every year.

We reviewed everything we have been working on since her 18 month appt, including the introduction to her thyroid meds. I have to mention that Ellie's Ped and the Ds Clinic are not advocates for treating her thyroid based on her #'s, as they feel they are within normal range. One other point that was brought up was that if I truly felt treating thyroid was important, then I should consider a synthetic thyroid medicine. There's a fine balance in following my mama-gut and also making sure I'm doing the right things for Ellie that is safe. So with that said, they both acknowledge she is doing great and that what I am doing currently won't harm her health. So I am getting more blood work next week to make sure everything looks good and will go from there. 

Ellie has been on her thyroid meds for 4 months now. Jess and I have seen a HUGE difference in her. She had 3 teeth come in within the first week of being on the medication! I couldn't believe it. She also seemed stronger and more solid, and she is on her way to walking. I had said I would do an update on her symptoms, so here is a comparison of her initial symptoms (the reason I explored thyroid treatment) and I compared them to how she's doing now:

• She stopped growing 
• UPDATE: At her 2 year appt she has grown to 33.5" and 24 pounds since her 18 month check-up. She's in the 50% for height and a tiny nugget at 16% for weight. The docs are happy with her growth and height to weight ratio. Still a string bean but growing steadily. 





You can see the mottling on her skin here. Doesn't she look big though?

• Mottled skin 
• UPDATE: She still has slight mottling (all of my kids had this) but it's much much better. 
• Cold hands and feet 
• UPDATE: Her little hands and feet are warm now! 
• Constipation 
• UPDATE: This one is a big one for us, we have dealt with constipation since Ellie was born pretty much. She's now mostly regular. It's so nice to not worry about that anymore. Oh I bet she will love to read this when she's older...
• Tongue protrusion 
• UPDATE: Ellie still has tongue protrusion but she is better about keeping her tongue in. She also understands the concept of "tongue in" and "tongue out" so that's what we focus on now. Her OT actually noted the improvement from her first visit versus after the thyroid treatment.
• Swollen belly 
• UPDATE: Now that her poops are in check, her Buddha belly is much better. She still has a bit of a belly on her (just like her mama) :) 
• Yellowish skin 
• UPDATE: She no longer has a yellow nose, but her hands and feet have a slight yellow tinge. Upon reviewing her diet we found out that most of the foods she eats are yellow/orange. Her doc says this is most likely the culprit so I'm working on that one!
• Tiny feet! 
• UPDATE: I sure wish I measured her feet before and after the meds, but I do know that she fills out her cute shoes finally. I am sure they grew, I just can't tell you how many sizes! 
• Delayed tooth eruption (5 teeth at 20 mos) 
• UPDATE: 3 teeth came in within the first week of the medicine. She has two more molars coming in on the bottom so we are up to 8 teeth and 2 peeking through! 
• Dry skin 
• UPDATE: She gets chapped very easy on her cheeks and chin, but her dry patches on her elbows and knees have cleared up. 
• Puffy eyes 
• UPDATE: I think her eyes look less puffy, when I look back at photos and compare them to now I think this is improved. 
• Low iron levels 
• UPDATE: I'm still working on this one, I need to add iron to her supplement list and have been bad about adding yet another one. This one is my fault! 
• Low muscle tone 
• UPDATE: I definitely see a marked improvement in her tone. She feels so solid to us and strong, it's amazing! She can go from sitting to standing unassisted which is huge for her.
• Reflux (she is a spitter-upper, still!) 
• UPDATE: This is no longer an issue. Her frequent spit up is gone! 
• Delayed fontanel closure (still has a soft spot) 
• Just checked it and it's barely there, even Jess was surprised at how small it is now! 

The past few months we've had a lot of fun, super busy Christmas celebrations with our family, the kids were spoiled rotten by their Grammee, Papa, Grandma, aunts and uncles and cousins. Jess and I had a fun date night new years eve which is rare since we don't like leaving the kids on new years! We even squeezed in a quick trip to see our BFF's in Dallas and so Jess and Scott could watch the Duck game (which made us realize how stinking much we MISS them!!!) we are now counting down until they come visit us this summer!

I also went with my mom and Jos and some other neat gals to watch Famous Iris (and Jos') BIG film debut in the movie "Wild" with Reese Witherspoon. It was SO fun!! Here is a still from her big scene, I hope it's OK I post it here! It was so funny watching Jos sink in her theater seat as we all screamed LOUD during her scene!! Sorry Jos, but it was awesome and exciting to see your faces on the big screen! Wooo hooooo!

Here are a few more of our favorite pics from the past couple of months. I am focusing on Ellie pics since it's her 2 year birthday update. I seriously took too many (no surprise there) and need to sort them out and organize them!

Looking so pretty in her Christmas dress (courtesy of Grammee!)

Our handsome dudes.

Loving her new cabbage patch from Grammee and Papa

Happy 2nd bday baby girl!

A comparison from last year's 1st bday pic! Look at how big she is!

My ballerina in her dress from Uncle Matt and Auntie DiDi

My little doll

One of my all time faves of our girl

Our neighbor Kate LOVES Ellie, and Ellie loves her too

For this week's song I chose one from the movie Wild. Do you ever hear a song and it immediately takes you back? This one was almost haunting for me, as I had not heard it since my dad was alive. He used to sing and whistle it all of the time- but I didn't realize it until I was sitting in that theater hearing it again after all these years. After the movie I immediately found it online and listened to it, and sent it to all my brothers. They remembered it like I did. It's funny how a song can do that to you and can stir up so many emotions. This was a good reminder of how music has been such an important part of my life and has shaped many of my memories. 

El Condor Pasa - Simon and Garfunkel

This is the face she and her daddy do to each other, I love it!

The Best Advice I've Received

It's been two years already since we welcomed Ellie into our lives, with her little extra somethin' somethin'. And in these two years I have received some amazing advice; "be kind to yourself", "don't project into the future, enjoy each day", "milestones, schmilestones", "don't compare", "don't limit her", "admit when you need a break", and "follow your gut". The last one has proven to be an important one. But the one that has really stayed with me was given to me less than a month after Ellie was born. Let me explain how it all happened.

Somehow, the Down Syndrome Network of Oregon heard about Ellie's birth diagnosis and they wanted to give me a Basket of Hope. I had no idea what this meant, and I hesitantly agreed to meet a local mom. We chatted over email and I found out she had a son named Jacob with Down syndrome, he was 13 at the time. They planned on coming over to meet Ellie, and so I could meet Jacob.

Meeting Jacob would be the first time I had actually talked to someone with Down syndrome. I was nervous and I asked my mom come over to meet them with me. Come to find out, in a fateful sort of way, this mother lived a couple doors down in our neighborhood just a few years before! And now they live only a couple of miles away, I love when this stuff happens! She and Jacob and his older sister arrived and were so welcoming and sweet. Jacob was tall and lanky, considerate and well spoken. I'm ashamed to say it now, but upon meeting him I realized I had some serious misconceptions about what the diagnosis meant, and I had a lot to learn. He was so sweet with Ellie. He held her carefully and he brought tears to our eyes when he said quietly "you're like me". 

Jacob's mom was laid back and easy to talk to. I felt like I had known her my whole life. She asked me what we liked to do for fun, and I told her our favorite things were entertaining and going boating. This was when she said "so, you like to throw parties? Keep doing it. You like to go boating? Keep going boating." It was as simple as that. It was a defining moment for me. It's hard for me to explain but I felt lighter, like a weight had lifted off of my shoulders. I kept thinking our lives were forever changed when we found out about Ellie's Down syndrome. She went on to explain how therapy is important, but to not let it rule your life. Real life, Ellie being home with her brothers, going on the boat, spending time with family and friends doing regular things is just as important as therapy. 

Since meeting her that day I think about her words often. I get caught up (a lot) in wondering if I'm doing the right things. The list of therapies available is as long as my arm, and the list of vitamins and supplements she could be taking is huge. She doesn't just get a gummy vitamin like her bros, I'll admit that, but I really have to take a step back quite a bit to make sure I'm not spinning out of control with the research. We have a smart happy little girl who is a complete riot, who loves partying and she absolutely loves boating. Our life as we know it is pretty dang good, and I'm so glad I had this seasoned mom to remind me that things only would change for us if I let them.

Next weekend I get to deliver a Basket of Hope to a new local mom. I have to mention how grateful I am to the Down Syndrome Network of Oregon to give me this opportunity. Receiving that basket two years ago meant the world to me. I am so giddy to be able to meet this mom and her beautiful new baby boy. We have been in touch over the last few months and I feel like I know her already. Actually, there were two new babies born in the area on the same exact day, how awesome is that!? I just have to say it, welcome to the club new mama's!

This week's song is just a random one I love, and below is a photo of our big 2 year old. I will do a 2 year Ellie update post soon. :)

Where Do the Children Play - Cat Stevens

A Thank You to My Brother's Teacher, 40 Years Later

We all have one. A teacher who holds a special place in our hearts, who will forever be remembered and cherished. They may have gone the extra mile, believed in you when you didn't believe in yourself, or even pushed you when you didn't think you could accomplish something. But the impact they made on your life is something you will always remember.

Mine is a woman named Mrs. West, who I am still in contact with today thanks to social media. When I was placed in her class in the 2nd grade I cried. I begged and pleaded with my mom to switch me to a different class, Mrs. West was mean and everyone knew it! My mom told me that if I still felt the same way in a month, then I could switch. Well luckily she gave me the freedom to make the choice on my own. She ended up being my most favorite teacher of all. She was my teacher in 2nd grade, 3rd grade and even for a few classes in 8th grade. That's a small town for ya! She was something special, and by the way she wasn't mean at all. Strict, yes, but she was loving, gentle, and helped instill confidence in me. She will forever be "that" teacher in my heart.

This brings me to the whole reason I'm writing this post. My brother Danny has been talking about his Head Start teacher Karen ever since I can remember. He's 13 years older than me so it seems like from my first memories as a kid I can remember him talking about this awesome teacher of his. My brother has a memory like a steel trap and can recall things that happened when he was 4 or 5 years old that blow me away. He talks about how she was encouraging, loving, and she wholeheartedly believed in him. It impacted him in a way that stayed with him, for over 40-something years to be exact!

About a year ago my brother picked up his phone and called the information line. Who knew that still existed!? He asked for Karen by name and the town she taught in, which was in California. He was connected to a lady on the phone. Danny giggles when he recalls how he said in his deep voice, "hello, this is Daniel, I am Karen's student from 1969, I was 4 and 5 years old when she was my teacher." The woman on the other end was Karen's sister-in-law, and she knew Karen would be absolutely thrilled to hear from one of her students. 

When Danny and Karen connected over the phone I wondered if she really remembered him. This was over 40 years ago, and as a special education teacher she had taught many many students in that time. Well they started talking on the phone quite frequently.  Not too long ago Danny excitedly told me that Karen was coming up to Oregon to see him, along with her brother. What? She is? I thought he was surely messing with me.

Last week I had the absolute pleasure of meeting Karen in person. She and her brother came all the way from California to see my brother. Let me say that again. They came all the way from California to see my brother, 40-something years after she had him as a student!! They stopped by my house to meet me and my kids. When I opened the door Karen proclaimed "You look JUST like your mother!" It brought a huge smile to my face. It was wonderful to hear her talk about my mom and my brother. Hearing about Danny as a little boy, just Luke's age was so neat to me.

She helped Danny pick out gifts for my kids, coloring books, crayons, pads of paper and more. The boys knew the story behind Karen so they were showing off everything they knew, writing their letters, putting together sentences, counting, you name it. They were excited to have a teacher in the house and she seemed genuinely impressed! I got to sit and chat with her about her life, how she had been a teacher in Head Start and went on to be a speech therapist. She is now retired from teaching. I loved hearing about her students with Down syndrome who she has watched grow up into independent adults. She had such uplifting and positive information to share with me. 

And as to whether she really remembered my brother? She absolutely did! She remembers details such as his favorite movie as a kid. She remembers how smart he was and how funny he was, even way back then! She cares for him so much and it shows. While visiting Danny they even had dinner at my mom's with my other brother Matt and sis-in-law Diane, then went to the casino with my other brother Kevin. She got to meet part of our big crazy family and she said it was one of her best vacations ever. She said she and her brother never stopped laughing.

Danny and Karen

Danny and Karen's brother Dave

Uncle Danny and Ellie

The whole group!

Karen, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. I hear a lot about how I will have to fight for Ellie once she's in school, be her advocate, and that it won't come without major challenges. I have been avoiding letting my mind go there because I know at age 3 she will be in the ECSE (Early Childhood Special Education) program and will be out of EI (Early Intervention) where we are now. I feel safe in this place and so the thought of her being in school scares me. We are only a year away! Fear was creeping into my heart, but meeting you has replaced that fear with hope. I am so grateful for teachers and human beings like you. You genuinely care for my big brother and I hope and pray that Ellie has her own Karen someday. Thank you!!

For this week's song I thought about my bro and his favorite music. He loves his Irish tunes and is so proud of his heritage. One of his most favorites (besides Wild Rover) is Danny Boy, hmm I wonder why? Here is a great version by one of Danny's favorite singers, Johnny Cash.

Danny Boy - Johnny Cash

I Missed My Flight and So I Stayed

I haven't posted in a couple of months, time seems to be slipping right through my fingers. This is going to be another pictorial recap of September and October. We have had a whirlwind of a time I tell ya, with the Buddy Walk, a once in a lifetime family vacation to Hawaii, Halloween, Ellie whistling like crazy and her health update! And she's going to be 2 years old in two months!

The boys started school in September, we have a Kindergartener and 2nd grader now. Luke rocked his purple shirt, tie, and purple Nikes. I still remember to this day the way I felt when I started Kindergarten. Horrible butterflies and a sick feeling in my stomach. A feeling I still get to this day when I have to do something new that makes me uncomfortable. Luke on the other hand is nothing like me in that way, he was excited for his first day.

We had Ellie's Buddy Walk, it was amazing. We had a big group of walkers and it was an absolutely beautiful day. I had set a goal to raise $1,000 for the Down Syndrome Network of Oregon. We ended up tripling it and we raised over $3,000! I couldn't believe the outpouring of support from my coworkers, family, friends, even some of my new online friends that I have yet to meet in person. We are so grateful. Thank you to those who donated and joined us in our walk. It means the world to us.

In September I had a little mom's get together at my house to talk about my appointment with our Naturopath Dr. Peirson. Having local moms to talk to in person is so important. The kids all play so well together. We spent most of the time talking about our stories and how we received the Ds diagnosis. There's something I have noticed in many of the stories I hear. I've heard stories about years of fertility struggles and then all of the sudden they were pregnant with their child with Down syndrome. Or they weren't expecting to have anymore children and "surprise!!" there they were! Or the dream thing, one of the local moms I chatted with also had a dream of their child before they were born. There's just a little shred of magic in these kid's conception and I am always left in awe. I wonder what that's all about... hmmm...

Speaking of my mom support, I am planning to meet many of my online rockin' moms in 2015. I'm so excited I can hardly see straight. I'll be going to a conference in June and I'm hoping to go to a retreat in September. I've made so many lifelong friends thanks to Ellie and I'm so grateful.

A couple of fun things that have happened recently, I had another blog posted on The Mighty, I sure love that inspirational site!! It was the one where I wrote about my big bro Danny and Uncle Dave.

The Mighty also made a shout out for parents of children with Down syndrome to share their thoughts about raising a child with Ds and somehow my quote was picked. How cool is that? These 24 People Have Advice For Any Parent Who Just Received a Down Syndrome Diagnosis.

I also entered Ellie in a photo contest for an awesome site called Stand Up For Downs. They use humor and comedy to raise money, awareness, and get people laughing. I can so appreciate their mission. They had a funny picture contest, and we could have won $1,000 to the charity of our choice! I was hoping I could raise funds for our non-profit (the DSDN) and we were SO CLOSE at 5^th place!! The winner totally deserved the #1 spot, you have to see the photo that won it's hilarious. Here’s the picture I submitted, it makes me giggle:

October was also Down Syndrome Awareness Month. I did this little photo of Ellie to celebrate. I actually printed this at Costco to hang in her room. Her face just kills me, she's so darn kissable!

We also went on a trip to Hawaii to celebrate Jesse’s Uncle Jack. He turned 60, and he is by far one of the coolest dudes I know. It was a big group of us, my in-laws, Jesse’s Grammy, along with our family that moved to Vietnam last year. It was soooo relaxing and so wonderful to watch the cousins together again. The boys were so excited for their first time on an airplane. Ellie traveled like a champ and made friends everywhere we went. We drank lots of mai tais and ate really good food thanks to the cooking skills of my sis-in-law Dani. There was lots of swimming, sunning, and giggling. This was a trip we will remember forever.

As we were exploring the island I kept thinking about the people that live there. Everyone seems so relaxed and friendly, it has such a laid-back vibe. I wondered what do they do for a living here? How much does it cost to buy a home? Could we pick up and leave and come live here and never go back? “I WISH!” Jess and I kept saying. When we were sitting in Uncle Jack’s backyard (I mean back sand.. on the ocean, not really a yard)… I told him how I completely get why he lives there. It's paradise! He then told me that 28 years ago, he was 32 years old and living in Oregon. He went to Hawaii to visit, and upon returning home had missed his flight. Oops. “So I stayed” he said. Just like that. He never looked back. He just decided to stay in Hawaii and he’s lived there ever since. See? Dude.

Uncle Jack with his great nieces and nephews in his backyard :)

He’s awesome and it was so great to get to know him in his element since we usually only see Uncle Jack when he's in Oregon visiting. He took the kids for rides in his yellow car, gave lots of noogies, and snuggled Ellie up a ton. Will told me today that Uncle Jack went 90 miles an hour in that yellow car and that they almost hit a wild turkey. I highly doubt it was that fast, but in a 7 year old's mind it's something he will never forget. I’m so grateful we could all go to Hawaii together to celebrate this awesome guy. I took over 1000 photos again, and surely my computer is going to explode from being over capacity at some point. Here are some of my faves:

During our vacation I also ditched all of Ellie’s supplements, her sure steps (braces for her ankles), her hip helpers (to keep her froggy legs aligned). It was awesome (I said that in a singing opera voice in my head)… I gave her thyroid meds every day but that’s it. And you know what? I felt like she was stronger and progressing better than ever after that. Why does that always happen?? She's now back on everything, we are following PT’s rules as far as wearing all of her therapy gear, and we are back to our routine but damn it felt good to be a rebel! And she loved it too.

Halloween started off kind of awkward this year. You see, every Halloween since the boys were tiny we would trick or treat in our little town with the cousins, but that isn't possible now that they live in Vietnam. So last year we realized we needed to find a new tradition, and we went with our best friends and had a blast in a new neighborhood trick or treating. Well they moved to Texas in August, so that tradition ended too. Can you sense the self-pity?? Wah waaaah. I feel like everyone we love is moving away from us, and I don't like it! So I called our OTHER best friends and invited ourselves to hang out with them. I have no shame. Luckily they said it was fine! It was a lot of fun, the kids scored tons of candy, and it was fun to catch up. Jen, you guys better not move away too!

Our boys together

Ellie was Minnie Mouse, Will was a dead skater boy, and Luke was a zombie. I found out how to do the make-up from watching youtube and hounding my friend on facebook who is a zombie face make-up master (thank you Michelle!!!!) It was easy and the boys LOVED it. 

Here’s a quick how-to: You will need liquid latex, which you can buy from the Halloween store or in my case Amazon because I have a sick addiction to buying stuff on there (free shipping in 2 days? Count me in!)… anyhoo, paint on a thin layer of latex, put a piece of tissue paper over it, paint another layer of latex over that and let it dry. Use tweezers and pull the paper and rip it. Then you just paint over it with cheap face paint you can get at the Halloween section of any store. Wah-lah! You have scabby peeling sores on your face! The boys said it was their most favorite costumes ever. And I had fun doing it!

OH, and THIS! This happened:

Brag alert! This is a drawing by my niece Karley, she is 15. I can't tell you how many times Jesse and I, as well as the boys, have studied this dude's face. She drew this with pencil on a piece of copy paper. I still can't believe it, I can't tell you how absolutely proud I am of her. She amazes the hell out of me. She is the most talented artist I know and I can't wait to see what her future holds.

OK, Ellie’s health stuff.  She is now on thyroid medicine. She had 3 teeth come through after being on the meds for 7 days, 2 top molars and one of her front teeth- NO JOKE. Her hair is shinier and growing faster somehow, her tone is better. She now pulls up to stand and goes from the couch to the table with no fear. It took her forever to get to this point but once starting the meds I kid you not, she is a confident little stander-upper now! Everyone noticed the huge change in her, my mama-in-law, my mom, our babysitter, everyone! Walking is still a ways away, but I feel like we are heading in the right direction. I am now giving her the meds two times a day based on her latest blood work. I truly believe this is what she needs and it feels right. Although the Pharmacist at Walgreens made a snide comment "WOW, you have your child on thyroid medicine ALREADY? Isn't she a little young for that?" She's lucky there was a window in between us because I wanted to throat punch her. OK not really. Ok well maybe just a little bit. :)

I have been waiting months for Ellie to say “mama”. One of her first words was "dada" and in the past year I've been trying to get her to say mama, but she will look at me with a twinkle in her eye and say "dada". Then it finally happened, but it wasn't the way I expected. See the below video. And note this was a month ago and she still says it this way. Yep that’s my girl... she's such a stinker. 
Ellie Finally Says Mama

Her other awesome new trick is her whistling. People freak out over it. Her OT said “in all my years working with kids I’ve never had a child able to whistle at 20 months old!” I think it must be genetic. My dad was the best whistler ever, and I whistle every day. And hey it’s good oral motor therapy if you ask me!
See clip:
Ellie Whistling

I also want to bring up our DSDN Holiday Card Campaign. We are making a shout out to families who have children with Down syndrome to send a holiday card to their medical providers (NICU Team, Pediatrician, OB's Office, etc). Please share your beautiful families far and wide as a reminder how loved our little ones are. 

Here are a few more photos from the past couple of months.

Ellie's left eye is turning green and you can really see the difference in this pic. 

Yes, yes you are my girl.

One of my all time favorite pictures of her!

I made this shirt for sis, I think it's so cute on her. We also sent one to Ellie's boyfriend Mason, how adorable is he??

Every once in a while I will have a shirt idea and have found Spreadshirt to be really great in regards to quality, ease of designing, and quick shipping too. This is also where I made the boy's shirts for our first World Down Syndrome Day. Luke wears Will's old one now and it's getting too small. I think I'll reorder some bigger sizes soon because they love to wear their "sissy shirts".

Here's my little shop with the different shirts I've come up with: Spreadshirt Shop I highly recommend them if you have an idea for a shirt!!

I love this photo, look at how small my babies are! Oh my heart!

Well that wraps it up for now. We are looking forward to hosting Thanksgiving at our house again, and then Christmas is right around the corner and Ellie's birthday too. Can someone slow down the clock a little please? I can't believe it's the middle of November already. Sheesh!

I always end each post with a song that is special to me. As I've said before, I always have a constant soundtrack playing in my head. For this post I asked Uncle Jack to choose the song. He is a music buff and has impeccable taste, so I knew he would come up with something perfect. Thank you Uncle Jack, I think this is a wonderful choice. I especially like this part:

So if you're walking down the street sometime
And spot some hollow ancient eyes
Please don't just pass 'em by and stare
As if you didn't care, say, "Hello in there, hello"

Hello In There - John Prine